Boy how time flys!!

Now that the summer is almost over and it is time for the kids to start schoolwork again I guess I should give an update. We are now living in an area just outside of Wilmington called, Winnabow. Shannon loves the area but the girls and I would still rather be back home. I have tried to adjust but feel like it is just to much on me emotionally. When I am there for a long period I feel so depressed that I look to find a reason to come back home.

The girls are not adjusting too well either. Marissa cries every night holding a picture of Ma-maw or Pop Pop. Makayla is back to not sleeping through the night and peeing in her pants. Mariah is doing okay but I m having a hard time with her obeying and not picking on her sisters. When we do come home, the girls have such an attitude change that you would not think it was the same children.

I am going to home school Mariah this year. Mostly for personal reason but still going to try just the same. I need her around to help out around the house (home schooling can be done in less time than public school) and it will allow us the flexibility and freedom to come home when I need some long overdue help from family. We can come home and bring school work with us and not worry about her school schedule.

I still plan on trying to go back in January to work on my Master's program. I will hopefully have enough credits by September that I can find a good job and put all 3 of the kids in school and only pay daycare fees for one. I am planning on trying to find a job back around Elizabeth City for the purpose of having family that can watch the kids.

The move has been so very tough on Shannon's and I 's marriage. We are standing on some really rough ground that I feel like could give way any time. I feel like he should help out more around the house and he thinks he does plenty. He has made some advancement (like putting his plate in the dishwasher and occasionally doing some disciplining of the kids from the recliner) but I need more help and am even more scared for what the next few months will bring. I am not perfect either, as I am constantly gripping at him over his job because sales are down and the money is not coming it. I think it would probably be easier on him if I would quite but sometimes stress takes over and I hate to see him work 60+ hours a week and make nothing for it.

I guess this whole post has turned into me complaining about moving and I'm sorry. I don't know if we made the right decision to move but I do know that something has to give in or we won't make it much longer. They say things happen by God's plan but it has really tested my faith over the last year and I can truly say my faith is starting to become weak. I continue to read the bible every morning in the hopes of trying to strengthen my faith again and continue to pray for God to help change my attitude and my life around to a more manageable situation.