I am positive!!

Okay so this is gonna be one of those blogs where I rant about how I hate something. You may want to skip reading it but i just ahd to get it out ad I figured what better things to do than type it. My other choice was to stand in front of the mirror and yell at myself. So here goes:

I am a positive person for the most part but I am married to one of the most negative people I know. Yes, I love and would change a thing but I just have to know, all of you negative people out there, where do you find happines? How do you live from day to day with so much negativity and hate for the world and the circumstances that you live in? Do you only feel happy and satisfied when things are going good? If that is the case, you live a pretty miserable life because in the normal person's life things are bad 75% of the time and good only 25%. This doesn't mean that life is bad or that you can't be happy.

I am going through one of the worst times in my life right now and yes, I have a hard time some days. For the majority of the time though, I love my life and I am relatively happy. I cry when things are tough but I have to get it out so that I can be tougher than the situation. I control what I do in life and the decisions I make. If I am always negative about my life then my life will be full or negative things. I try to think about what could happen good to me today. I wake up every morning to 3 beautiful, health girls who love me unconditionally and what more reason to always look for the good in the things I do. I might not always enjoy my day or even like my job but if I keep going things will get better and I will once again be on top of the world. Yes, I will fall back down in the valley again and have to fight to get back to the top for my short reign in glory but the fight is what makes life worth living.

I want to be the person who smiles when I feel like dying inside. I want to be the person that people remember as always being happy and could make anyone smile when my heart is breaking and my days are long. I want to be the person that my girls can look to for the positive response. I want to be the person that shows them how to always remember that no matter how bad life seems now there is alwyas someone out there who has it worse than you. I hope that my girls grow up to be the person that I am because I am proud of what I have done and who I have become. I want my girls tosee me go through the hard times and keep smiling knowing that I will come out the other side a better person.

I pray every night that my husband will one day change his attitude on life and his outlook of the world. If not so be it, he is who he is and I love him for it. It would just make my job easier.

Well gotta go do some work, TTYL!