A sto my early post, I don't want to sound like a total B. I do love my husband and he has some great qualities as well the bad ones. I guess you have to take the bad with the good.
I am very grateful for him and he is a lifesaver at many times. We were meant to be together and blessed to have found each other.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
I am positive!!
Okay so this is gonna be one of those blogs where I rant about how I hate something. You may want to skip reading it but i just ahd to get it out ad I figured what better things to do than type it. My other choice was to stand in front of the mirror and yell at myself. So here goes:
I am a positive person for the most part but I am married to one of the most negative people I know. Yes, I love and would change a thing but I just have to know, all of you negative people out there, where do you find happines? How do you live from day to day with so much negativity and hate for the world and the circumstances that you live in? Do you only feel happy and satisfied when things are going good? If that is the case, you live a pretty miserable life because in the normal person's life things are bad 75% of the time and good only 25%. This doesn't mean that life is bad or that you can't be happy.
I am going through one of the worst times in my life right now and yes, I have a hard time some days. For the majority of the time though, I love my life and I am relatively happy. I cry when things are tough but I have to get it out so that I can be tougher than the situation. I control what I do in life and the decisions I make. If I am always negative about my life then my life will be full or negative things. I try to think about what could happen good to me today. I wake up every morning to 3 beautiful, health girls who love me unconditionally and what more reason to always look for the good in the things I do. I might not always enjoy my day or even like my job but if I keep going things will get better and I will once again be on top of the world. Yes, I will fall back down in the valley again and have to fight to get back to the top for my short reign in glory but the fight is what makes life worth living.
I want to be the person who smiles when I feel like dying inside. I want to be the person that people remember as always being happy and could make anyone smile when my heart is breaking and my days are long. I want to be the person that my girls can look to for the positive response. I want to be the person that shows them how to always remember that no matter how bad life seems now there is alwyas someone out there who has it worse than you. I hope that my girls grow up to be the person that I am because I am proud of what I have done and who I have become. I want my girls tosee me go through the hard times and keep smiling knowing that I will come out the other side a better person.
I pray every night that my husband will one day change his attitude on life and his outlook of the world. If not so be it, he is who he is and I love him for it. It would just make my job easier.
Well gotta go do some work, TTYL!
I am a positive person for the most part but I am married to one of the most negative people I know. Yes, I love and would change a thing but I just have to know, all of you negative people out there, where do you find happines? How do you live from day to day with so much negativity and hate for the world and the circumstances that you live in? Do you only feel happy and satisfied when things are going good? If that is the case, you live a pretty miserable life because in the normal person's life things are bad 75% of the time and good only 25%. This doesn't mean that life is bad or that you can't be happy.
I am going through one of the worst times in my life right now and yes, I have a hard time some days. For the majority of the time though, I love my life and I am relatively happy. I cry when things are tough but I have to get it out so that I can be tougher than the situation. I control what I do in life and the decisions I make. If I am always negative about my life then my life will be full or negative things. I try to think about what could happen good to me today. I wake up every morning to 3 beautiful, health girls who love me unconditionally and what more reason to always look for the good in the things I do. I might not always enjoy my day or even like my job but if I keep going things will get better and I will once again be on top of the world. Yes, I will fall back down in the valley again and have to fight to get back to the top for my short reign in glory but the fight is what makes life worth living.
I want to be the person who smiles when I feel like dying inside. I want to be the person that people remember as always being happy and could make anyone smile when my heart is breaking and my days are long. I want to be the person that my girls can look to for the positive response. I want to be the person that shows them how to always remember that no matter how bad life seems now there is alwyas someone out there who has it worse than you. I hope that my girls grow up to be the person that I am because I am proud of what I have done and who I have become. I want my girls tosee me go through the hard times and keep smiling knowing that I will come out the other side a better person.
I pray every night that my husband will one day change his attitude on life and his outlook of the world. If not so be it, he is who he is and I love him for it. It would just make my job easier.
Well gotta go do some work, TTYL!
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Decision Time
Well, as most of you know Shannon was going to take a job with Home Depot in New York. We were going to go up to Albany for the weekend this coming weekend but things have fallen through. Supposedly, they have a policy that if you work for them and quite in less than six months they place you on a "no hire" list. It would be nice to have known that before they called him up and offered him the job and got our hopes up.
Now we are back to where we were 2 months ago, at decision time. I want to go back to work but finding a job in this small town is really, really hard. I would like to get on at the Coast Guard base and I thought it would be easier as I already have some civil service experience but I guess that doesn't help much. My dad has a buddy who said that he would keep his ears open for a job in my field and let me know what to do. He said that he would pull all the strings he could to get me on but who knows what will happen. I have started looking for jobs outside of the area but still in the state. I really don't want to go too far from home because my parents and Shannon's grandparents have such a huge influence on the girlz lives.
I hate to make major decisions in life, mainly because I am afraid of making the wrong decision. I know that things will work out and if I pray harder enough, God will answer my prayers and help me make the decisions I need to make.
Now we are back to where we were 2 months ago, at decision time. I want to go back to work but finding a job in this small town is really, really hard. I would like to get on at the Coast Guard base and I thought it would be easier as I already have some civil service experience but I guess that doesn't help much. My dad has a buddy who said that he would keep his ears open for a job in my field and let me know what to do. He said that he would pull all the strings he could to get me on but who knows what will happen. I have started looking for jobs outside of the area but still in the state. I really don't want to go too far from home because my parents and Shannon's grandparents have such a huge influence on the girlz lives.
I hate to make major decisions in life, mainly because I am afraid of making the wrong decision. I know that things will work out and if I pray harder enough, God will answer my prayers and help me make the decisions I need to make.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Recent Updates
Not a whole lot to report lately. We all had a good Christmas and the girls got more than I ever imagined. It took me several days to find the floor under all of the toys and clothes. I did get my ipod, thanks shannon. Shannon got Guitar Hero and was addicted to the TV for several days. I truly didn't mind though because the girls and I went out of town to Travis's house for a few days.
New years was next and we did the married couple with kids things and stayed home to watch the ball drop on TV. I personnally had to fight to stay awake but I did make it. We didn't do the kissing thing because we were both to lazy to get up off the couch to meet each other in the middle. I guess that's how you know when you have been married tooooooooooo many years....LOL!!!
I went back to work on Friday. I am only working part time with the same company I was working for until Sept 2007. They called me up and asked if I would be interested in coming back part time. Of course we need the money so I said yes but it had to be on a limited basis. I am working on average one day a week away from the house and usually a total of one day a week at home. I would still like to find a full time job that will help pay some of the bills and cover daycare fees.
I know that all of our dreams will come true one day, they may not be the same dreams then that we are dreaming for know but they will come true. It is funny how your hopes and dreams change with age and I expect that mine will change again as I get older. I continue to have faith and a storng trust in the Lord. So, I guess that is my resolution for the new year to continue to hold strong to my faith and to always look for the good in life even when there isn't much hope left. One of my favorite quotes is "It always rains the hardest on those who need sun the most." I beleive this is true but one day the rain will stop and the sun will shine.
Wishing you all a great '08, with continued success and joy in life.
New years was next and we did the married couple with kids things and stayed home to watch the ball drop on TV. I personnally had to fight to stay awake but I did make it. We didn't do the kissing thing because we were both to lazy to get up off the couch to meet each other in the middle. I guess that's how you know when you have been married tooooooooooo many years....LOL!!!
I went back to work on Friday. I am only working part time with the same company I was working for until Sept 2007. They called me up and asked if I would be interested in coming back part time. Of course we need the money so I said yes but it had to be on a limited basis. I am working on average one day a week away from the house and usually a total of one day a week at home. I would still like to find a full time job that will help pay some of the bills and cover daycare fees.
I know that all of our dreams will come true one day, they may not be the same dreams then that we are dreaming for know but they will come true. It is funny how your hopes and dreams change with age and I expect that mine will change again as I get older. I continue to have faith and a storng trust in the Lord. So, I guess that is my resolution for the new year to continue to hold strong to my faith and to always look for the good in life even when there isn't much hope left. One of my favorite quotes is "It always rains the hardest on those who need sun the most." I beleive this is true but one day the rain will stop and the sun will shine.
Wishing you all a great '08, with continued success and joy in life.
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